How has it already been a year?
As I am sitting here writing this I do not know where to even begin. 2020 was a roller-coster for so many of us. Personally there were the good, the bad and the ugly moments.
Over a year ago I decided to start my own business. I have always wanted to make a difference in the world and help others. That is one of the reasons I got my Psychology degree. It was scary and I was suddenly in unknown territory. Did I want to give up? Absolutely! Who do I think I am starting my own business?
I knew that I hold my future in my own hands. Nothing was ever handed to me, and I had to work very hard to be where I am today and I am very proud of that. I know that I can do anything I set my mind to.
Finding my Purpose after feeling lost in anxiety
I was so excited to start my business and finally felt that I had a purpose in life after struggling for so long with my mental health. But as always, whenever you make a decision to start something, there will always be those people who want to bring you down. Maybe it isn’t intentional, maybe they don’t want to see you hurt when things do not work out, or maybe they do not want to see you succeed for their own selfish reasons.
I wrote the below in September 2019. Even to this day I am still not sure if I want to share this with everyone. I was at a very vulnerable state in my life. I have only shown this to a couple of people close to me. The reason I want to share this, even though it is something I wrote over a year ago, is because whenever I am having a bad day I read it and even though it reminds me of everything that was going on at that time, it still has a way to make me feel better, to empower me and remind me WHY I am doing all of this. Sooooooo, here it goes:
“What do you do when the people around you say that they want you to succeed but refuse to give you the emotional and mental support you need. When they refuse to give you positivity about your plan for the future? When they don’t believe that you will succeed and say that they will wait and see if you actually do before supporting you? What do you do when you suddenly are surrounded by so many people and at the same time you feel the loneliest you have ever been? It brings you down and makes you want to give up and stop trying because what is the point if I don’t have the people I care about, and who I am doing this for, support me.
I get right back up and on a mission to prove them wrong. To prove them that I am capable of taking my future in my hands and making something for my self. To build a legacy that my children will be proud of. When I reach where I want to be I will look in the mirror and say “Look what you have achieved on your own, with no support and only a dream. You are a warrior. You are a champion. I knew you would make it. I am proud of you”. The only person i need supporting me is myself. As I am my most harshest critic but also I am my biggest supporter. I am the one who knows how important my dream is and what I am willing to do to reach it.
Moral of the story – Don’t give up
Don’t give up on your dreams and believe in yourself. Anything you put your mind to you can achieve. As long as you believe you can do it you are unstoppable.” – Natalie Charloua
Fast forward to today… I can honestly say that I am happy with everything that I have achieved. In a year I have achieved so much, more than what I expected to. I still have many goals in my life and business to achieve as they keep evolving as I move on. I will always strive to move forward as I grow.
Sometimes people enjoy bringing others down.. other people want to genuinely help but do it in the wrong way which makes you feel overwhelmed and that you are not good enough. Remember that no matter what you do, you can’t please everyone.
Your future is in your hands. No one is going to hand things to you on a silver platter. You need to work hard to get what you want.